My life is now officailly fucked! I have no family. my only family are my friends but even then how much do they really care about me.  i meen they will accept me to do anything even if im risking alot of consequences like jail or ending up homless.  Some friends.  Although i must admitt that i do feel more at home with them ten i do at home with my parents. and all my friends do meen good for me and at least i have friends that remember i still exist after two days of not talking to them. 

So anyway, my life sucks and all i can do is sit back and watch it as it gets worse and worse by the day.  every day i fuck something up and get in mor shit which makes my parents hate me that much more. it seems like i dont give a fuck about them because all i do is steal, lie, and stab them in the back.  I'm a really awful son and nobody should ever have to put up with me. FUCK!!

 

This a tru story based on the altered consciousness of my mind. (drugs)


It starts as the sun arises on my meaningless body, lying motionless, glued to the bed with sweat from my over heating spirit. I knew I shouldn’t have stay up all night. Inhaling Ritalin just to keep from hurling is not a healthy way to spend an evening. And I’ll do it all again today, everyday. The insanity of it all!! I wouldn’t be able to bear the burden of being the disappointment of my generation, of the families before me. I don’t know exactly what drives me but as soon as the chance arrives im on the sneak for cash. Have it be my own mothers’ medicine money I will take it to feed the hunger that dwells within.

I count my money and pray that I have enough to get my fix. AH HA! Ten dollars in loonies and toonies the good ol Canadian change, always pay off in the end. Now back to my hopeless life. I dropped out of school to pursue more meaningful prospects of life. (Mind alterations) I want to see the sounds and hear the colors that make up this shit hole of a world. To start I must get money…steady money. I’ve got an interview with a very suspicious character in a very sketchy building. My gut tightens as I enter her office. I can’t tell if it is because of previous drug use or paranoia but whatever the cost I mustn’t let the demon women know my junkie secret.

Everything goes good, she doesn’t expect a thing. She offers me a spot in this so-called class. That was easy, too easy. I am weary to her swift actions and delay on my reply. “is this some elaborate plan to lure me into the depths of her anti Christian ritual of virgin sacrifices?!” It cant be…im no virgin, I’ve had plenty of sex in my lifetime. I take her up on her offer and hope for the best. The real test will begin on Monday.

I get to my friends house and he is just like me fixfixfixfixfixfixfixfixfixfix!!!! After a few mind-dulling situations in the kitchen we head out to journey to the school. The one place I don’t want to be. (but first money from the soft voiced lady from the war)
Ian don’t get lost! Sam I luv you! I don’t understand my own thoughts! Ian! Sam! Jonathan! Jon! Viau! What does it all meen? Its too late know Ian is gone into the mirror doors that knew he was coming. Im all alone now. With sam. SAM! I envy you Sam, I don’t know how you can survive the addiction the insanity is to much for one man, but not for you . you are strong and eager to change you generation. Finally….

Ian came back just in the nic of time.. I want to lash out on the next unexpecting victim and I wwwwwwas afraid it would be lovely Sam. Oh I hoped I wouldn’t have to hurt her. You saved me Ian but you will never know until you are inside my head. Now onward to the school. ( I miss kyle)

COVERT, COVERT!!! I cant be seen but I feel confident that Ian is with me. he knows how to keep everything on stealth mode. They will never find me, and if they do I will never talk you have my word on that. My lips are sealed. KYLE!!!!!!!!!!
IT WAS LIKE A DREAM>>>>>KYLE>>>>>>I missed that bastard. Now I feel complete again we must move. I must get high

Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking WAIT! Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking


Long story short eat before you ever do mesc.!!!!!!!!!

P.S. I finish the story tomorrow

This a tru story based on the altered consciousness of my mind. (drugs)


It starts as the sun arises on my meaningless body, lying motionless, glued to the bed with sweat from my over heating spirit. I knew I shouldn’t have stay up all night. Inhaling Ritalin just to keep from hurling is not a healthy way to spend an evening. And I’ll do it all again today, everyday. The insanity of it all!! I wouldn’t be able to bear the burden of being the disappointment of my generation, of the families before me. I don’t know exactly what drives me but as soon as the chance arrives im on the sneak for cash. Have it be my own mothers’ medicine money I will take it to feed the hunger that dwells within.

I count my money and pray that I have enough to get my fix. AH HA! Ten dollars in loonies and toonies the good ol Canadian change, always pay off in the end. Now back to my hopeless life. I dropped out of school to pursue more meaningful prospects of life. (Mind alterations) I want to see the sounds and hear the colors that make up this shit hole of a world. To start I must get money…steady money. I’ve got an interview with a very suspicious character in a very sketchy building. My gut tightens as I enter her office. I can’t tell if it is because of previous drug use or paranoia but whatever the cost I mustn’t let the demon women know my junkie secret.

Everything goes good, she doesn’t expect a thing. She offers me a spot in this so-called class. That was easy, too easy. I am weary to her swift actions and delay on my reply. “is this some elaborate plan to lure me into the depths of her anti Christian ritual of virgin sacrifices?!” It cant be…im no virgin, I’ve had plenty of sex in my lifetime. I take her up on her offer and hope for the best. The real test will begin on Monday.

I get to my friends house and he is just like me fixfixfixfixfixfixfixfixfixfix!!!! After a few mind-dulling situations in the kitchen we head out to journey to the school. The one place I don’t want to be. (but first money from the soft voiced lady from the war)
Ian don’t get lost! Sam I luv you! I don’t understand my own thoughts! Ian! Sam! Jonathan! Jon! Viau! What does it all meen? Its too late know Ian is gone into the mirror doors that knew he was coming. Im all alone now. With sam. SAM! I envy you Sam, I don’t know how you can survive the addiction the insanity is to much for one man, but not for you . you are strong and eager to change your generation. Finally….

Ian came back just in the nic of time.. I wanted to lash out on the next unexpecting victim and I wwwwwwas afraid it would be lovely Sam. Oh I hoped I wouldn’t have to hurt her. You saved me Ian but you will never know until you are inside my head. Now onward to the school. ( I miss kyle)

COVERT, COVERT!!! I cant be seen but I feel confident that Ian is with me. he knows how to keep everything on stealth mode. They will never find me, and if they do I will never talk you have my word on that. My lips are sealed. KYLE!!!!!!!!!!
IT WAS LIKE A DREAM>>>>>KYLE>>>>>>I missed that bastard. Now I feel complete again we must move. I must get high

Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking WAIT! Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking Walking and talking


Long story short eat before you ever do mesc.!!!!!!!!!

P.S. I finish the story tomorrow